Hi guys,

Only just realised I am supposed to give you a background to me

I am 37 years old, and married to a wonderful man who I love very much . We have no children (yet) but an energetic, mad chocolate Labrador called Bailey.

I am a nurse in our local hospital, and enjoy motorbikes, reading, walking, needlework and socialising with friends in my spare time.

My weight 'issues' began with puberty, and my entire adult life has been spent on and off some diet or another. I am quite rebellious, and when my parents nag or tease me about my weight, I dig my heels in and do my own thing anyway - not a good idea .

Anyway, I feel I am on the slippery slope to 40, and I want to be forty, fit and fabulous NOT forty, fat and frumpy

I have been thinking about LL for about 5-6 months, having seen a couple of colleagues at work having great success, but it took me that time to pluck up the courage to join! We also have 2 weddings and a christening this year, so I would like to reveal my 'new' me in front of family and friends whom I see infrequently - I can't wait to see their faces

Wishing everyone, and me, luck on their weight loss journey

03 Mar : 21:30
* End of the LL road... [ Show blog ]
Hi guys

I hope you are all having a good week?

We have several wards shut at the moment with a D&V bug, and yours truly has caught it amp; . As a result, I had to miss my class last night and had an email from my LLC to say that she has had to take a full-time job (due to the economic climate) and will be moving our class to a Saturday. Now....she hasn't confirmed a time, but the building ...
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28 Feb : 16:35
* Day 54 [ Show blog ]
well.....horrendously busy last night.....what is it about Saturday nights, I wonder ....the consequence....not enough water and only 2 foodpacks in 24 hours ...now I feel amp; and really headachy ...combined with little sleep today means that tonight should be interesting...let's hope no-one pi$$es me off .

.....oh well, I can't undo the past 24 hours, so hopefully it'll show on the scale...
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27 Feb : 19:52
* Day 53 [ Show blog ]
why do people try to sabotage us???? ....let me give you the background... lots of positive strokes at work this week ....followed by the "you don't want to lose any more though" comments !!!!! AAARRRGGGGHHHHHHHH..... I STILL need to lost about 4 st JUST to be in a healthy BMI, so I am not exactly skeletal ....amazing though that these comments always come from fat people (and I don't mean...
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26 Feb : 18:12
* Day 51 & 52 [ Show blog ]
Nothing much to report, other than lots of positive strokes at work - I seem to have lost loads more from my face, neck and bust, so it's nice that people are still noticing after the initial 6st loss .

TBH it makes me feel proud of ME and what I have achieved, and although it's taken me a year (long by LL standards) I have done MY journey MY way ( is that rebellious child then ).

As someone s...
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24 Feb : 21:39
* Day 50 [ Show blog ]
wow! Day 50....

Another great day in missy's household, although I am now minus 1 x engagement ring and 1 x wedding band ...the reason? They are getting resized .... there'll be no re-gaining the weight then otherwise I won't be able to get them off

Another 100% abstinent day, and we've been to the cinema to see Avatar - thoroughly enjoyed it even though I didn't know what it was about, an...
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23 Feb : 21:10
* Day 49 WI [ Show blog ]
Hi everyone

Woohoo................HALF WAY

Home from WI and 4lbs lighter . To say I am delighted is an understatement

We had a strange class tonight, as most people in the group seem to have the 7 week itch

Anyway, we did have a good session about impulse eating, and coping mechanisms to stress, and how if we do what we always did we'll get what we always g...
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22 Feb : 16:50
* Days 46-48 [ Show blog ]
Well....my week's work is done busy nights (when is there anything else???) so must've burned up mega extra calories . Unfortunately I've not had time to drink enough water, so trying to make up for it today .

Still 100% abstinent, and lots more positive strokes at work as uniforms are starting to be a bit loose again...guess I'll have to visit the sewing room again soon for new ones .

WI t...
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19 Feb : 15:18
* Day 45 [ Show blog ]
G*d....I must seem really boring....my mood at the moment seems to be very happy most of the time . NOT that I'm complaining .

Beautiful sunny day here, and the snow is almost gone . Went into town today to pick up one or two food items for darling hubby and wore my.... wait for it....size 14 jeans . Now, to some people this may still seem big (and sometimes when I look in the mirror I...
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18 Feb : 19:28
* Day 44 [ Show blog ]
Day 2 of lent...44 of 100% abstinent . Today has been difficult, mainly because I am home alone and bored, BUT I did it - 100% abstinent > . Darling hubby will be home soon, and his food for tomorrow is all sorted, and the dog's fed....so no need to go back in the kitchen tonight, as I have just filled my pint glass again .... sparkling just for the variety you know .

Managed to only get s...
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17 Feb : 16:10
* Day 43 [ Show blog ]
well, just in from walking the dog, and we are both soaked to the skin and freezing - mixture of rain and sleet...bbbbbrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. I thought spring was on the way .

Oh well, Bails is now sleeping it off, and the house stinks of wet dog amp; I remember now why I chuck him in the back of the Landy and let him loose somewhere...then it's only the car that stinks

Hot choccie has not warmed me ...
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16 Feb : 21:18
* Day 42 WI [ Show blog ]
DOH!!! Got mixed up on my days so edited to keep me on the right track

WI tonight, and "just" another 2lbs off for me....BUT....that's 30lbs since 5th January 2010 WOOHOO

I am so excited, and although my goal of another 21lbs off by the end of foundation may not be doable, I will almost certainly have another stone plus off

Feeling VERY positive, and enj...
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16 Feb : 21:17
* Day 41 [ Show blog ]
well....day 40....cannot believe it

Went to the dentist today for a check-up and needed a filling, so feeling a bit tender tonight . Oh well, it'll soon pass .

Still 100% abstinent, and feeling fab...it really is so much easier when you get on that wagon to STAY on it .

I have done a lot of thinking today (in the dentist chair to take my mind of the procedure) and I realised I have been ab...
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14 Feb : 21:40
* Days 37-39 [ Show blog ]
I think the days are right


I've been around but not much as just finished work this morning. Darling hubby was on nights too, so we both slept really well snuggled together with our ear plugs . Unfortunately, 12-hour nights and 9-hours beds doesn't leave much time for much else .

Is everyone having a good Valentine's? I got a dozen red roses, and because I couldn't have choccies or champ...
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10 Feb : 21:53
* Day 36 [ Show blog ]
Well guys.....you'll be pleased to know I am more upbeat and cheery today

Went shopping in Derby today....well my friend has just won one of the Excellence Awards at work, so we went shopping for her outfit....and we had FUN ...lots of , lots of gossiping, and we got her a beautiful outfit in Monsoon . Me....I enjoyed looking at all the things I COULD buy if I wanted to ...including that elu...
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09 Feb : 21:40
* Day 35 WI [ Show blog ]
Well....gonna make it short as feeling a little low today . Not sure why, I know I am looking better, and in general feeling much healthier with no more aches and pains, and I knew I was going to have a "low" loss week.

And I did...."just" 2lbs which is slightly irritating when I have been 100% abstinent and 100% committed to the programme, but do you know what? At weigh in I was very adult abou...
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08 Feb : 21:07
* Day 34 [ Show blog ]
well....I am absolutely FREEZING despite....central heating ON, log fire burning, 2 t-shirts and a fleece ....I also have thermal socks on ...think hubby's thinking the new me is supposed to be sexy

Oh well....the problem is, he loves me ANY way ...fat or thin...thermals or lace

Still 100% abstinent...how am I doing it?

The simple answer is...I don't honestly know. I'm feeling v...
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07 Feb : 22:42
* Day 33 [ Show blog ]
woohoo.....managed to get through a very difficult day at work today, and avoided all the "treats" that ex-patients buy the wards when they leave

Wonder had it anything to do with seeing my LLC whilst I was on one of the wards...don't know who was more shocked - her or me

Still 100% abstinent, but my scales aren't showing a loss yet this week but I've been on track with the programme so not wo...
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06 Feb : 12:12
* Day 32 [ Show blog ]
Woohoo.....a third of the way through foundation 100% abstinent ALL the way. To blow my own trumpet ( ) I am so pleased, and truly hope I have learnt from my mistakes from the past .

Heading to work shortly, and quite enjoy the novelty of being on days rather than a lady of the night , it also means I get lots of positive strokes from people who don't do nights, so that always make me smil...
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05 Feb : 18:35
* Day 31 food mentioned [ Show blog ]
Well, I've had a great day

Spent time with my gorgeous hubby and our mad pooch

The days are definitely getting longer, and we have new shoots on the water lilies on our pond . Spring is in the air, and it's wonderful to be alive . Still 100% abstinent and drinking well .

Ali's blog really got me more motivated about exercising as this is the one area I am failing on at the moment. I...
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04 Feb : 19:57
* Day 30 [ Show blog ]
WOW...................where did that time go? I know I keep repeating myself, but the time is just flying .

Still 100% abstinent, and still feeling great .

Nothing else to report today, hope everyone else is having a good one?

Onwards and downwards ladies (& gents )
Cx
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03 Feb : 20:16
* Day 29 [ Show blog ]
Well, had a lovely long walk with our pooch in the DRY today, which was very novel . Housework done, meeting at work at 2pm - still have a job and then met my friend for coffee in town.

Was good to go to the meeting today, as I'm usually a lady of the night, people are still shocked when they see me 6st lighter, but oooohhhhhhh.....I love the positive strokes as they make me all warm and glowy...
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02 Feb : 21:15
* Day 28 WI [ Show blog ]
O.....M.....G......

Another 4lbs off for me this week . I cannot believe it although I have been 100% abstinent .

January totals therefore are 26lbs off (or 52 packs of butter ) and a total inch loss of 13" . I am totally amazed and so pleased .

All in all I feel good having been to class tonight as we are all gelling as a group and everyone feels comfortable with being open to discussion...
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01 Feb : 21:17
* Day 27 [ Show blog ]
Nothing much to report today, I'm afraid. Hubby's at work and I've enjoyed a day off with Bails. Frosty and bright today for out walk which was FAB!

Still 100% abstinent, and although only just over a quarter of the way through Foundation, I'm trying to decide what my next step will be. The options are:

1. Continue into Developers - not keen on this idea due to the bad experience I had previously...
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31 Jan : 19:09
* Day 26 [ Show blog ]
Well....last day of January, and more than a quarter of my way through foundation.... WOW where did that time go?

Feeling good today and still 100% abstinent and trying desperately hard not to get distracted by the fact the scales aren't budging this week . However, when I am having rational thoughts, almost 6lbs/week gone is not to be scoffed at .

Bought some summery clothes today, and feel ...
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31 Jan : 18:04
* Day 26 [ Show blog ]
Well....last day of January, and more than a quarter of my way through foundation.... WOW where did that time go?

Feeling good today and still 100% abstinent and trying desperately hard not to get distracted by the fact the scales aren't budging this week . However, when I am having rational thoughts, almost 6lbs/week gone is not to be scoffed at .

Bought some summery clothes today, and feel ...
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30 Jan : 19:44
* Day 25 [ Show blog ]
We've had a really lazy day today! Snuggling in front of a lovely fire and watching films

Going out tonight dancing so that should make up for my laziness today

Soda water for me and my quest to stay 100% abstinent continues

Still feeling really chuffed about yesterday, and thanks to all of you who posted on my blog

Onwards and downwards ladies (& gents)
Cx
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29 Jan : 23:12
* Day 24...London day-trip [ Show blog ]
well guys....set off this morning at 5am to head to Londinium . The plan was to drive to Stanmore tube station, and then tube it in, but sat nav wouldn't work so we didn't know what exit to take off the M1 so drove to Hemel Hapstead instead .

We have been talking for years about going to the Natural History Museum, and today we did it! We thoroughly enjoyed it and we still had time for a quick...
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28 Jan : 20:20
* Day 23 [ Show blog ]
....crying on my mood thingy....but only because I feel very emotional, but happy emotional (if that's not too Irish ).

Still 100% abstinent, and feeling fantastic . More positive strokes at work last night, and boy does it not make you feel grand? It's easy to forget how things were a year ago ...but meeting people you haven't seen for a while, looking at old photographs, etc really brings ...
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27 Jan : 19:16
* Day 22 [ Show blog ]
Well....WI last night and another 3lbs gone . Amazingly, where I previously would have been really disappointed at this, now I must have my head in the right place because I know I have been 100% abstinent and that's 22lbs in 3 weeks ... I ask you which other diet would give these results? NONE long live LL and my determination to remain abstinent

Last night at work tonight, and then I hav...
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26 Jan : 18:20
* Day 21 Weigh in [ Show blog ]
Well.....still 100% abstinent....it makes LL so MUCH easier by not lapsing/nibbling I feel I have well and truly learned my lesson from the last 3 months of last year, and am so proud to say my head is still in "the zone"

WI tonight, and although I don't feel I will have lost much this week, I feel ok about it as I know I have been 100% on track and the weight WILL come off, despite what the ni...
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25 Jan : 18:28
* Day 20 [ Show blog ]
WOW! A fifth of the way through now....amazing

Feeling great today, as met my friend this morning for coffee....well we were well into our second cup, and an old work colleague came in, and didn't recognise me . I bet it's 3-4 years since I've seen her, and she kept running her hand down my face and saying how fab I was looking ...not a bad compliment for someone who regularly runs marathons...
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24 Jan : 23:32
* Day 19 [ Show blog ]
Not much to report today, other than still 100% abstinent

OH gone to work, so we've had a lazy day, but I have done all the cooking for his packed lunches all week, which saves me time as I am back at work tomorrow night.

Meeting my friend for coffee in the morning, and then taking the pooch a mega long walk as I don't want to come home too early in case I awaken sleeping beauty .

Onwards and d...
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23 Jan : 20:57
* Day 18...warning food mentioned! [ Show blog ]
I know I say this almost daily, but I cannot believe I am almost a fifth of the way through foundation . Certainly seems like time is flying, and I am feeling fab .

Today, I have had 2 hours sleep (8am - 10am) as we were going to the Japanese Classic Bike Show at Stoneleigh today. Feeling not too bad, and really chuffed that I managed to sit through several coffee stops involving cakes, scone...
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22 Jan : 17:20
* Day 17 [ Show blog ]
Well....I know some people on here do a bit of scale jumping on a daily/regular basis between class I AM one of those people, but this week they are not budging ....is it putting me off? is it making me want to eat? NOOOOO..... and the reason? I am thinking RATIONALE thoughts....I am consuming 500 kcals so I MUST be losing weight.....OMG who would have thought I would have had reasonable thoug...
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21 Jan : 18:53
* Day 16 [ Show blog ]
Not much to report today, in the middle of 3 nights so not doing too much other than working and veg-ing out

Still 100% abstinent which is fantastic, and I am feeling so proud of myself . Still on this high and remembering why I love this diet so much, and trying to hold onto this feeling throughout foundation and beyond

Onwards and downwards ladies (& gents)
CX
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20 Jan : 18:24
* Day 15 [ Show blog ]
well....start of week 3

I'm still on the high of my last 2 weeks' losses, but am reluctant to say too much on the main forum as I don't want anyone to feel bad . We had a big discussion about this in class last night, and we have agreed as a group not to discuss specific losses, merely whether we are pleased or not. I will post my losses on the Tuesday WI thread, in my blog and on my signatur...
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19 Jan : 21:05
* Day 14...WI [ Show blog ]
WOOHOO...........another 9lbs for me this week, total for 2 weeks 19lbs

Feeling on top of the world, and realistic that I cannot continue these losses on a weekly basis, but I'm enjoying them whilst I can

Skins looking better, I have more energy and feel BETTER on the inside. The aches and pains, which had returned to my feet, have now gone again

Have set some goals for foundation:

1. My lovely...
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18 Jan : 20:38
* Day 13....unlucky for some [ Show blog ]
...but not for me

Not much to report today, other than remaining focussed and 100% abstinent . Had a lovely "me" day with Bails, feeling all relaxed now and patiently waiting for darling hubby to come home from work .

WI tomorrow, and for some strange reason I always feel nervous when I've been 100% abstinent . Isn't the mind a wonderful thing...this bl**dy weight didn't go on in a coupl...
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17 Jan : 22:23
* Day12 [ Show blog ]
Hi guys :h

Completely knackered today...why can people not stay at home when they are not well? Why do they have to come to A&E....it makes my job harder . So busy today, and I was over an hour late off shift...oh well....haven't had a break either...good old NHS

Anyway, still 100% abstinent and my Ketostix's a lovely shade of pink . WTG girl....YOU can do this!!

Onwards and downwards lad...
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16 Jan : 22:03
* Day 11....feeling deprived [ Show blog ]
....sleep deprived that is !!! Why is it, when I am on LL I need so much LESS sleep than before? I've been awake since 4am . Oh well.....I can spend more time thinking about my hols and THAT bikini ....or was it the nightmare of THAT bikini which awakened me in the first place

Today has been the worst day yet....feeling so hungry and cold bbbrrrrrrrr!!!! Do you know how bad it was......e...
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15 Jan : 17:51
* Day 10 [ Show blog ]
Woohoo......a tenth of the way through foundation

Seriously though, where does the time go?

Feeling fab today and shocked to discover that today is going to be a bar-free day . How has that happened? Last year I COULD NOT have survived without my daily chew but I have discovered hot chocolate and enjoy that before bed. This, of course, is due to the new hand blender I bought yesterday .

Ha...
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14 Jan : 18:49
* Day 9 [ Show blog ]
Well guys.....finished this morning after 6 x 12-hour night shifts Got to bed about 8am and up again at 10.30 as I had to drop stuff off at Uni in Walsall .
Feeling good though - I'd normally be flagging by now, but today I seem to still be on that "grasshopper on crack" high .

Hubby has made me a lovely roaring fire because I am so cold, and I have cleaned the house so now all there is to ...
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13 Jan : 19:05
* Day 8 [ Show blog ]
Woohoo....10lbs gone for me this week, and size 16 jeans need pulling up on a regular basis

Feel fantastic and skipping around the hospital like grasshopper on crack )

Finally decided that we are going to spend Christmas (hopefully depending on work) with my husband's family in Australia, so that's a pretty good incentive to stay on track...I'm imagining walking round the cappuccino strips in my ...
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12 Jan : 18:41
* Day 7 [ Show blog ]
Well....my cold's going from strength to strength...than G*d for Max Strength Yes, Ali, I am one for drugs too....can't see the point of suffering . It must be pointed out, however...my cold is NOT as bad as the man-flu which is in our house at the mo

Heading to WI shortly, and still feeling nervous - scared I'll be disappointed...am I setting my expectations too high? I KNOW I have lost...th...
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12 Jan : 18:41
* Day 7 [ Show blog ]
Well....my cold's going from strength to strength...than G*d for Max Strength Yes, Ali, I am one for drugs too....can't see the point of suffering . It must be pointed out, however...my cold is NOT as bad as the man-flu which is in our house at the mo

Heading to WI shortly, and still feeling nervous - scared I'll be disappointed...am I setting my expectations too high? I KNOW I have lost...th...
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11 Jan : 18:52
* Day 6 [ Show blog ]
Well....almost a week done! Where does the time go ?

Slept well today....well, by that I mean I didn't waken and get up til 5pm but it was interrupted sleep as my sodding cold has come to a head, and I have a dry tickly cough which comes in bouts . When I got up, however, I found some sugar-free cough medicine so a dose of that seems to have done the trick .

Still feeling strong and good as ...
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11 Jan : 09:28
* woohoo....hope I stay in the zone [ Show blog ]
100% abstinent again last night at work....maybe too much black so I hope I sleep today

Avoided the chocolate brownies, chocolate M&S biscuits, crisps, nibbles and dips WOOHOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Just waiting patiently for OH to come home, and hoping his hour-long journey in the snow is safe

Onwards and downwards ladies (& gents)
Cathy
x
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10 Jan : 18:25
* Day 5 [ Show blog ]
Well guys.....I have to say I am still feeling pretty smug about the flapjack incident

Feeling really good, and managing to make the 4 packs last well as when I am on nights I usually get 4-5 hours sleep so that's a LOT of awake time to manage in abstinence

Can't wait to get exercising again, and looking forward to maintaining a good steady weight loss throughout my Foundation programme, but sti...
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10 Jan : 09:17
* OMG.....flapjack moment......AVERTED!!! [ Show blog ]
Well........I am SO pleased with myself. Second night and still 100% abstinent and that's despite my favourite doctor bringing in FLAPJACKS for and I was sitting BESIDE them....

Was I tempted...........yes
Did I have one...........NO

WooHoo.....I think I may have got my mojo back, but musn't celebrate too early and must keep focussed

Off to bed now.

Onwards and downwards ladies (& gents)
Cath...
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09 Jan : 18:34
* Day 4 [ Show blog ]
Well....day 4 almost done. I am pleased to report I was 100% abstinent during my 12 hour night shift, and that's despite a very traumatic night at work

Anyway, feeling great within myself, and up bright and well rested today... still amazes me how much LESS sleep I need on LL. My unifroms are feeling better already, even though only day 4

Must really set some goals, but don't know where to sta...
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08 Jan : 19:59
* Day 3 [ Show blog ]
Well....day 3 of abstinence nearly over....the challenge will be my 12hr shift tonight . I feel great, apart from the beginnings of a sodding cold, more energy, I feel more rested despite having less sleep, and no hunger. Snuck on the scales this morning and had a pleasant surprise - naughty I know, but no pop-ins for my group .

Had a great day out with my darling hubby and our dog walking in...
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07 Jan : 23:23
* Day 2 [ Show blog ]
Well....day 2 almost done....100% abstinent!!

Cannot believe that I have got my head in gear this time, but the test will be tomorrow night when I'm back at work . BUT I've done it before and I CAN do it again

Really must set some goals, and I'm trying to fill the spreadsheet which GO posted several months ago, but struggling to work it out....hey ho I'll manage it sometime soon

Onwards and d...
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06 Jan : 20:48
* Day 1 [ Show blog ]
Well guys.....I'm back

Had a total break since October and feel all the better for it. Thoroughly enjoyed socialising again \:D . Yes, I have done damage, but I'm ok with it following Vint's words of inspiration.

To be honest, I'm still 5 dress sizes smaller than I was this time last year, and I am VERY happy with that . My next goal is to fit in (and look fab in) the lovely new Boden and Per ...
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29 Oct : 18:54
* Yawn...... for anyone who reads this!!!! [ Show blog ]
Be warned....I am starting over....yet again....you will have heard it all before....


However, I have had a couple of weeks completely off programme, and actually thinking about what I want to do and where I want to go...:-@

I have toyed with the idea of accepting myself at this size (everyone thinks I look great), of increasing my goal weight so I don't have that much more to lose (size 16 and acco...
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15 Oct : 18:57
* forum dependence [ Show blog ]
I don't know ....

I feel stronger and more motivated when browsing around the forum . Makes me feel a bit daft, if I'm to be honest, but given the struggles of the past 3 months, I don't really care...whatever it takes to get me to Christmas!

Still receiving lots of positive strokes at work, which also helps =D>. Unfortunately spent 8 hours sleeping in bed today, so not got much time for much el...
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14 Oct : 09:16
* what challenges today? [ Show blog ]
well....thanks guys for your supportive response to my blogs yesterday! It's amazing how little things help, isn't it? For those of you who find it difficult to read my ramblings, my excuse is that my roots are still firmly placed on the other side of the Irish sea .

Today will be difficult, mainly because I start my nights tonight....how do you make 4 packs last nearly 24 hours ?

I try to have 3...
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14 Oct : 00:06
* 53 minutes to go... [ Show blog ]
....and day 1 has been 100% abstinent. I have been tempted, but I have talked myself out of it

I also walked home from town which is 2.5 miles uphill, and something I have NEVER done (although walk more than this daily with my beloved choccie lab )

I bumped GO's post re: running, and have ordered a book from amazon to get started with improving my fitness levels ..... can't wait to see myself r...
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13 Oct : 09:31
* Day 1 ....AGAIN!!! [ Show blog ]
Well....am still struggling to get my head in gear. Was really disappointed in my mini-reveal at the wedding....could imagine everyone thinking...."she's lost 6 stone? where's that then, as she's still a big girl..." I'm really angry and disappointed in myself, as I should've been at goal by now, but have not succeeded in staying abstinent 24/7 for the past 3 months I MUST get these crooked tho...
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28 Sep : 15:02
* sneaks in, hiding her head in shame (again) [ Show blog ]
Well folks....couple of weeks since I have been on track...lots of excuses... away from home on a stressful course for work, mum over visiting, and general apathy regarding my weight loss mission!

I haven't even stood on the scales, although clothes all still fit, and thankfully my dress for the wedding on Saturday still fits . Having said that I am NOT a happy bunny with myself, and to be honest...
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06 Sep : 15:58
* isn't life wondeful? [ Show blog ]
Isn't it amazing how we can just exist? For years I have considered myself as a happy person....I'm married to a wonderful man whom I love dearly , have a nice home, mad choccie labrador, parents and family who love me, and a job a really enjoy and which challenges me on a daily basis....yet....now I am so much HAPPIER and actually ENJOYING life.....how does that work . Not sure, but not compla...
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02 Sep : 22:52
* it's easy when we stick to the programme [ Show blog ]
Well....had BP checked today (no problems there) and my resting pulse is 54 beats per minute (normal is 60-100) - that must mean I am getting FIT!!!!! On the subject of exercise, I've been looking into joining our local badminton club, and may ask for a gym membership from Santa.......oh how a year can change someone .

Anyway, the title was something we discussed in class a few weeks ago. At th...
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30 Aug : 18:58
* bouncy castle... [ Show blog ]
Thanks guys for all your lovely comments on my last blog . Last night was our friend's BBQ, and a great time was had by all. I baked the aforementioned items, and stuck to soda water and all night...

One of my fellow LLers from my class has hooked up with our friend so she was there with her sister and we had a right old laugh. The two of us and her sister on the bouncy castle most of the...
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29 Aug : 00:50
* feeling on top of the world (WARNING: food mentioned) [ Show blog ]
I've just had (another) fab day with my darling husband . I am pleased to report he is getting back to his usual self, and although he feels guilty about being made redundant, he realises it's not his fault. He is looking forward to starting his part-time course at college in the next couple of weeks .

We set off this morning, and went to Ashbourne. The intention was to have a quick check in t...
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25 Aug : 20:17
* good week possibly no loss??? [ Show blog ]
Well, I have managed to stay abstinent this week, and feel great! Size 16 jeans are comfy and 16 tops are looking decidedly loose . I am being restrained though, and although I saw a couple of GORGEOUS tops in Monsoon today, I was strong and didn't purchase (yet!) .

As I have to constantly be 'naughty' I have been jumping on the scales between classes, and this week it doesn't look like I'll hav...
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19 Aug : 19:21
* almost halfway... [ Show blog ]
Well....I cannot believe I am almost halfway to goal Interestingly (and thankfully) I have got to the psychological place I was in during my time in foundation, and I know I CAN do this .

Pushing boundaries, lapsing, listening to others and not trusting my own instincts, well this will happen NO more . I cannot afford, either financially or emotionally, to continue in this destructive spiral,...
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12 Aug : 16:20
* embarrassing [ Show blog ]
All these positive strokes and compliments....I find it REALLY embarrassing. I suppose when I was bigger I tried to blend into the background, and it took several stones lost before people actually started to notice. Most of the doctors changed at work last week, and some have returned that I've not seen in a couple of years, and the compliments are flowing. The only problem is....I don't know ...
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06 Aug : 19:57
* more positive strokes.... [ Show blog ]
Cannot believe how long it is since I jotted my thoughts down but I have managed to stay 100% abstinent, and feel fab .

I finally took my boss' advice and went on Tuesday to the sewing room to see about doing something about my uniforms. I took my old ones with me, and explained to the sewing lady that I had lost some weight, but wanted to lose some more so my boss had asked me to get just a co...
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31 Jul : 18:32
* Why make it hard for ourselves? [ Show blog ]
As previously blogged, LL is simple and effective when you stick to the programme. In fact, I would almost go as far as saying it is easy WHEN you stay 100% abstinent . Why then, do I (and many others) feel the need to push the boundaries????

I think I have learned my lesson over the past few weeks - spending money but not sticking to the programme wastes time, effort and prolongs the time to ...
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29 Jul : 23:07
* 100% abstinent all the way [ Show blog ]
Well folks, just back from developers, and dramatically feel more in control again. I have had a fantastic group session about the difficulties I experienced with the transition from foundation to developers ....I only wish I had stayed 100% abstinent for the last 2 months as I could've been 2 stone lighter but hey ho, perhaps I needed to have this 'blip' and I'm hoping I can come out the other ...
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29 Jul : 01:05
* ooohhh...........shopping stress [ Show blog ]
You know, I didn't like shopping at my heaviest because I didn't have much choice Now, 57lbs leaner, I still find it very stressful.....well, I did today because I was looking for an outfit for a wedding next weekend....and now all autumn stuff in the shops .

It's a sharp contrast to a couple of weeks ago when I bought my first size 16 jeans in a 'normal' shop and felt great telling everyone ....
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25 Jul : 18:02
* that great feeling returns [ Show blog ]
Well guys,

I have successfully done 24 hours in abstinence =D>. I think I am also struggling with our change in shift patterns - gone from a 9.5 hour night shift to 12! I must admit I like only having to work 2 weeks in every 4, but it has been playing havoc with my LL programme. Prior to the change in shift pattern I really struggled with fitting my 4 foodpacks in, but up until last night, I foun...
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24 Jul : 16:06
* Apologies if I am repeating myself.... [ Show blog ]
Many of you know of my disastrous holiday in June and my spectacular fall off the wagon ............well..........after working really hard to get back on track I have blown it again . This MUST stop immediately and today is the first day that I have had time to sit down and concentrate on ME.

We can all make excuses as to why we lapse - for me it's complacency (I can now shop in 'normal' shop...
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25 Jun : 23:53
* it's a revelation... [ Show blog ]
As you know I've been struggling since joining developers, but have in the last 11 days finally got back on track and I feel fab . Reading some of the posts, I was beginning to think that my weight loss was slower than others, and I suppose it is hard not to compare notes, as it were.

I have lost 51lbs and I am absolutely over the moon about it, and tonight I took some time to work out my avera...
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24 Jun : 23:02
* weigh in developers.... [ Show blog ]
Well....it's been a long time coming, but I have now seen the scales moving the right weigh . 5lbs off for me tonight, and a great class with a locum LLC. We had a group discussion rather than doing the exercises in the book, which seems to be the 'norm' for our group and I feel really positive that my goal IS achievable .

I have worked out that I shall be remaining abstinent until December, an...
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23 Jun : 23:07
* positive strokes....bring them on!!!! [ Show blog ]
Well......some of you may, or may not, know that I work predominantly permanent nights and I have found this really beneficial for my work on LL as I struggle to have my 4 packs a day when I'm at work ..........how is that possible? I don't even feel hungry and yet before LL I could have eaten 24/7 if I could have done without sleep .

Anyway, I do know the downside of not eat my 4 packs a day, but...
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21 Jun : 23:13
* isn't life great?? [ Show blog ]
Well....just been reading through some blogs, and I apologise to anyone whom I have offended by mentioning food and my struggles since being on holiday without prior warning in the title

I have now been 100% abstinent for 7 days and I am back to feeling absolutely FANTASTIC . Back to being full of energy and wanting to BE ACTIVE.......it's a fab feeling and makes me feel so glad to be alive.

It'...
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19 Jun : 20:29
* this is better... [ Show blog ]
Well...managing to keep on track this week, and I've not been tempted to nibble any cheese, AND I've been managing my 4 packs per day . I keep repeating the Calais/Cherbourg analogy we used, and another girl from my group and I are texting each other daily to keep on track as she's been nibbling a bit too - we're water wing buddies (see previous blog).

I'm on days this week for some practice de...
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18 Jun : 20:10
* phew... [ Show blog ]
Well.....after my developers class last night, I feel much more positive about the continued journey. We had a good group discussion about 'cheating' on the diet, and our LLC used the analogy of swimming the channel and instead of leaving Dover and going straight to Calais, one wouldn't think about swimming via Cherbourg! Much like LL - why cheat on the programme as the goal will take longer to r...
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17 Jun : 09:48
* mmmm.....can I do it? [ Show blog ]
I think I can. I WANT to believe I can. BUT, can I?

I don't seem to have the motivation I had 2-3 weeks ago, and I'm not going to make excuses for what has happened, and I am trying so hard to focus on the end result and what I (and my darling hubby) want to achieve. However, I am sssooooooo hungry at the moment, that I feel I could even binge on foodpacks

I am so relieved the forum is up and r...
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15 Jun : 23:42
* sneaking back in and hanging head in shame [ Show blog ]
AAAAAARRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhhhh....... silly silly cow

I cannot believe I have completely fallen off the wagon whilst I was at the TT . What's that saying fail to prepare is preparing to fail...

Well...I gained a pound on milk week, which didn't exactly please me, and then we rushed off on the bike straight after my first developers class....and guess what....I forgot t...
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27 May : 18:58
* Next stage and feeling nervous [ Show blog ]
Well, where does the time go? Been sticking religiously to LL and feeling GREAT . Still concerned re: not managing 4 packs daily, but we'll see how it goes. I think it's a combination of not feeling hungry and therefore forgetting to 'eat', and my shift work . Nevertheless, I;m feeling good.

The compliments are continuing to flood in and I have to admit, albeit embarrassingly, I am enjoying it...
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19 May : 23:36
* survived my first week's holiday visiting my family in NI [ Show blog ]
Well...............the compliments were flying, and I felt really proud (as did dear hubby ). The jungle drums were sent out as soon as I had visited my nana the day after I arrived

People were even noticing the weight loss whilst I was in the car, how does that work then . I wonder will I end up with a really scrawny neck , oh well, small price to pay, I guess ) .

Didn't make it t...
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10 May : 21:35
* First weekend away from home... [ Show blog ]
Well guys,

We went camping this weekend to a bike festival called Thundersprint. I've not been camping often, but have often enjoyed the bbq and wine side of it previously . We set off Friday afternoon, I loaded my faithful Tupperware measuring bowl, whisk, spoon and foodpacks (mushroom soup, porridge and 3 bars).

Arrived and tent erected without too much trouble, kettle on and relaxed by watch...
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05 May : 22:47
* day 52 and feeling on top of the world [ Show blog ]
Well, I have finished my 14 nights out of the last 19, and to say I am cream crackered is an understatement!

Weigh in tonight, and another 3lbs off - taking me to 39lbs in total. I am now in week 8. The rest of my group are in week 11 and I am a tad worried about what will happen when they reach the end of Foundation, I do hope we get to Development together as we have really gelled together as a...
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29 Apr : 18:47
* day 46.... [ Show blog ]
Where does the time go? I'll soon be half way through foundation, and can't believe how long it is since I last 'blogged' . I seem to be working more than chilling out at the moment, so that's my excuse and I am sticking to it

Total weight loss is now 2st 8lbs on LL and I cannot believe the emerging figure that I now have. I have pelvic bones I can feel, and I seem to have loads off my bac...
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21 Apr : 21:05
* weigh in...day 39 [ Show blog ]
Well.....feeling better. Thankfully only a tickly cough now. Tonight's my last night at work so feeling good all round .

Anyway, went to class tonight, somewhat apprehensively although not sure why...don't think I've drunk as much water this week, especially since I have had a fever and cold, etc

Nonetheless, I'm down 4lbs which I am ECSTATIC about . Total now is 32lbs - unbelievab...
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19 Apr : 18:53
* not sure how I'm feeling... [ Show blog ]
Well...not sure how I'm feeling for several reasons:

1. Sodding cold is lingering, but I am feeling so much better
2. Have now got a stinking headache
3. Need the loo and can't go (sorry TMI)
4. About to head to work for my 5th night out of 7

Sorry guys for the moan...feeling ok on LL though, although slightly concerned about my lack of movements I have to admit I have not drunk m...
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15 Apr : 13:07
* day 33....when will this sodding cold go away? [ Show blog ]
Eugh........I have a stonking cold, and feel really miserable. But like everyone with a cold, no-one has any sympathy because it's 'only a cold'! hehe

Trying to manage with just paracetamol, and anti-histamines but took a real coughing bout at 5am and after debating for an hour and having disturbed the whole house (well...hubby and dog) I decided to hit the Covonia! However, I did check the sugar ...
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13 Apr : 19:17
* day 31..........I'm ecstatic! [ Show blog ]
Well guys..............I'VE GONE AND DONE IT!! Dropped a dress size in both top and bottom . I shortened my 'new' linen trousers (despite the fact they are at least 2 years old, they still had tags on ) and my gorgeous green linen tunic from Monsoon last year . It's a tad low cut, but hey.....if you've got it, you've got to flaunt it!

Pushbikes are serviced and we had planned to go out t...
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09 Apr : 16:53
* day 27 [ Show blog ]
Sorry not 'blogged' for a while. It's been a weird week....as you may, or may not, know I work nights, and normally have lots of time to surf the net, but this week seems to have passed in a blur - may be something to do with lack of sleep!!!

Anyway, I am still sticking to plan 100% and can honestly say hand-on-heart that I have not cheated, or felt the need for a 'little taste' of anything :...
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01 Apr : 17:15
* another momentous day... [ Show blog ]
Well guys, slipped on my leathers today for a ride out with my gorgeous hubby on the motorbike...and YES they did slide on soooooooo easily , however... I can see a downside....I'm gonna need new ones before we go to the Isle of Man in June ....you know what...I don't care and I can't wait to go shopping for new ones

Hope you're all ok, I am feeling great, and going to take Brandy's advic...
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31 Mar : 21:48
* day 18 - weigh in [ Show blog ]
Well guys, you know how apprehensive I was about weigh in tonight, well I am pleased to report that I lost 6lbs this week .

To say I am ecstatic is an understatement. I have lost 20lbs in 18 days on LL, and whilst I have a long way to go (I really need to knuckle down and write some goals) I am feeling more and more liberated, motivated and energised by the day.

Incidentally I have invested i...
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30 Mar : 19:17
* nervous [ Show blog ]
Why am I nervous, I hear you ask...

Well......I have been soooooooooo good I am so worried about WI tomorrow night, am worried that my expectations of my weight loss (3lbs) this week will not be realised, and I will lose heart and wonder what it's all about...

However, I am NOT going to through in the towel, and will try to be sensible in my outlook........I am such a whittler . My gorgeous h...
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29 Mar : 10:26
* I did it!!! [ Show blog ]
Well, went to Birmingham yesterday afternoon, and spent the day with others eating cakes and drinking lattes...then on to the pub where wine was flowing and appetising looking food was eaten. My poor hubby, didn't eat anything to show his support of me

Anyway, I stuck to mineral water (sometimes with a hint of sparkle) and black coffee How liberated do I feel this morning? I cannot describe...
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27 Mar : 18:50
* day 14 [ Show blog ]
Where does the time ago? This has been my way of life for 2 whole weeks, and I can honestly say I haven't been tempted to cheat at all - long may this feeling last! I even trundled EVERY aisle of the supermarket today and topped up cupboards for forthcoming parental visit. Not feeling as apprehensive about have the goodies in the house, as I haven't been tempted by them - really surprising ...
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26 Mar : 22:09
* this weekend [ Show blog ]
Worried about the forthcoming weekend - mum and dad are visiting and the general plan is to go out for dinner on Saturday night and then on to a concert . I'm not worried about this as such, but I haven't told anyone I am on LL except my gorgeous hubby and my group, obviously. I suppose I have started so many diets and failed that I am a tad embarrassed, even though I KNOW I WILL DO IT THIS T...
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25 Mar : 23:22
* another day done... [ Show blog ]
I cannot believe how I don't feel hungry - isn't ketosis fantastic!! Hubby's back on Atkins, so we're both in ketosis and comparing strips!! It makes life so much easier as we keep each other on the straight and narrow! Still struggling to force down 4 packs per day lt;
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24 Mar : 23:35
* first stone [ Show blog ]
Well guys, WI tonight, day 11 on LL and I have lost another 6lbs. This brings me to my first stone of lard GONE FOREVER . I am totally amazed by how I feel - no hunger, more energy and still as motivated as I was when I went to my info class 2 weeks ago
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23 Mar : 13:50
* another small milestone... [ Show blog ]
Well....I can now get my jeans down WITHOUT undoing the button and zip...
How sad am I that such things give me a buzz???

Never mind, I am really happy
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22 Mar : 18:53
* small milestone [ Show blog ]
First test today since on LL; out with friends for the day and several coffee/lunch stops later, I have had black coffee, water and a nibble on a peanut bar . This is fantastic as it's the first 'social' occasion I have been on since starting.
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20 Mar : 19:10
* too much to say [ Show blog ]
Well I'm now on day 7, end of week one, but no weigh in until next Tuesday and the suspense is KILLING me, but I must not get on my own scales and I should be happy with my 8lbs loss on day 4 at my group session.

Off to sort out a ticker, although I haven't set a goal, I'll have a play.

Cx
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20 Mar : 19:08
* Blog virgin [ Show blog ]
Well, here goes...

I've never written a blog before, and somehow can't imagine I will have enough to say! What am I supposed to say?

I have decided I MUST conqueror my weight problems now, before I start to have serious health problems.

I want to be slim, fit and able to shop in 'normal' shops and buy clothes I WANT, rather than just what fits, which is where I've been for the last number of...
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20 Mar : 19:07
* Blog virgin [ Show blog ]
Well, here goes...

I've never written a blog before, and somehow can't imagine I will have enough to say! What am I supposed to say?

I have decided I MUST conqueror my weight problems now, before I start to have serious health problems.

I want to be slim, fit and able to shop in 'normal' shops and buy clothes I WANT, rather than just what fits, which is where I've been for the last number of...
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